I don't like this day. Everything was doing great but then suddenly, POOF! Out of nowhere, a new problem has again arosen to disturb me. I mean, this person has been okay with me for the past few days and now I don't know what I did wrong to make him feel this way about me. I didn't do anything, I was just trying to be honest and I didn't mean to hurt his or anybody's feelings. I just don't know why it has always to be my fault. I don't want to feel guilty anymore. I guess I really have to get along with my life and just forget about this person. It was hard for me to move on but I'm glad that I finally did. I admit there were times I wanted to be around him so bad and just ask him how is he doing and what has he been doing for the past few weeks. I don't mean to interrupt him, I just want to know how he feels after what we've been through. In short, I still care. But now I feel that there really isn't any more hope for us to be the good friends we used to be. I know someday everything will be okay, but it will really take time. I just have to wait for that time when we'll be okay with each other, not have hard feelings about what happened in the past and do what friends normally do. It pretty much sucks to be in the position where I am now because you feel something bad about someone when you don't want to. Deep inside I want to be with this person and I know he wants to be around me too. I just don't know until when do we have to play this silly game. But what am I to do? That's life. You got to accept the consequences because out of these you will be a better and stronger person.
This is going to be one lonely Valentines'.. Haa.. ='c
Enough with the drama. Okay change topic.
Someone very special in my life is going to celebrate his birthday tomorrow! He's my dearest and bestest friend. The friend who is always there for me when I needed someone to talk to, someone who would always be there when I feel bored and just come over to our house, someone who gives the best advices when it comes to love problems, someone who would put a smile in my face when everything seems so dark, and the friend who would always lend a shoulder for you to cry on. Yes, I'm talking about you Darren! Happy happy sweet 16th birthday and many more birthdays to come! Anong oras at saan ang handaan? Haha.. Kidding. Love you lots! <3
